Here's something you might be interested in.
i like closure . i like the official-ness of ending something. I'm wound too tight meaning i think about the same things over and over and over AND over until i can finally reach some some sort of conclusion ( at least in my mind ) then poof its gone maybe forever ...maybe to only pop into my cranium once in awhile but it is gone . but getting to that point is quite a journey of my personal mental goings on . i can be a perfectionist or you may even say i'm not normal. you would be kind to say the latter and ever kinder to say the former. i understand i'm not normal and it's taken a long time to actually figure that out and not struggle with it daily. to battle ones demons everyday can derail the brain train into spots that can be dangerous . certainly a happy-sad yo-yo that literally swings continually throughout the workday until you can properly medicate which temporarily relieves the stress but only masks the problems...and more issues. a lot of creativity is needed because tussling with the brain seems constant and you have to like a challenge because fighting it is just the way it is unless you can get to the point of realization of ok or get the right calibration this is just the way its going to be... embrace it. you don't have to sabotage it just try to know and understand whats going on and be smart enough to know your strengths and weaknesses and just realize its not going to be easy emphasizing your strengths and downplaying your weaknesses . if you were in total control of whats going on around you in this crazy world you got it covered . but its the external stimuli that usually gets you into trouble . you can avoid it sometimes but not all the time . so you better understand and be ready to deal with it and not just pick up and go home and hide. to have a life you gotta live a life among others and even though that may seem absurd at times... just live me alone doesn't quite cut it if some richness of living is to enter your life.
so celebrate the day !
now what was i going to say about closure ?
those ramblings are posted above .
i like closure . i like the official-ness of ending something. I'm wound too tight meaning i think about the same things over and over and over AND over until i can finally reach some some sort of conclusion ( at least in my mind ) then poof its gone maybe forever ...maybe to only pop into my cranium once in awhile but it is gone . but getting to that point is quite a journey of my personal mental goings on . i can be a perfectionist or you may even say i'm not normal. you would be kind to say the latter and ever kinder to say the former. i understand i'm not normal and it's taken a long time to actually figure that out and not struggle with it daily. to battle ones demons everyday can derail the brain train into spots that can be dangerous . certainly a happy-sad yo-yo that literally swings continually throughout the workday until you can properly medicate which temporarily relieves the stress but only masks the problems...and more issues. a lot of creativity is needed because tussling with the brain seems constant and you have to like a challenge because fighting it is just the way it is unless you can get to the point of realization of ok or get the right calibration this is just the way its going to be... embrace it. you don't have to sabotage it just try to know and understand whats going on and be smart enough to know your strengths and weaknesses and just realize its not going to be easy emphasizing your strengths and downplaying your weaknesses . if you were in total control of whats going on around you in this crazy world you got it covered . but its the external stimuli that usually gets you into trouble . you can avoid it sometimes but not all the time . so you better understand and be ready to deal with it and not just pick up and go home and hide. to have a life you gotta live a life among others and even though that may seem absurd at times... just live me alone doesn't quite cut it if some richness of living is to enter your life.
so celebrate the day !
now what was i going to say about closure ?
those ramblings are posted above .