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Julia Wehner: to feel, and to live

Ghost and Longing’s Clothes

  • Ghost
  • my romances are packed
  • in an empty box
  • spaceless
  • slid clean across cold tile
  • making faces that
  • mimic
  • art
  • tricked 
  • into a large heart 
  • only bricks and buds to house
  • in this smoky dining room 
  • with a couch
  • and blushing knees
  • to brush and
  • press
  • hungry still
  • perhaps could ponder less
  • but what past is there
  • to see besides dinners i
  • couldn’t eat
  • no there is some old
  • old word that billows
  • both breathed and
  • unheard ripping clean
  • through centers of frozen
  • wrists with a touch
  • sublime
  • Have I…
  • (have i been
  • a lover in my sleep 
  • this whole time?)
  • Longing’s Clothes
  • Nothing that perfectly fits.
  • A painter’s torn and billowed cuffs; a thin dress
  • awarding no favors to figure, yet tinted an ideal green
  • to sit seven inches, in a trailing drop, below
  • the ripe heart of a bloomed eye.
  • Cottons and linens spaced away from the skin, causing
  • mere brushes in inhaling to collapse the notion that
  • feeling every large thing at one time is unreasonable, or
  • remotely under our control.
  • It’s all in the clothing longing wears.
  • And it’s what I wear on these evenings.
  • I quietly reboil the same cup of tea. I wait
  • for my brain to grasp some new way
  • to talk about it. I loathe everything I see
  • that he has never touched. Fumes of longing,
  • scatterings of ribbons — nothing that perfectly fits.
  • I sit — motionless — by the open window.
  • Faint gusts funnel through my loose sleeves, and
  • my breath pushes my arms to meet
  • the thread. Behind blue lids, I watch you
  • wash the dinner dishes, cradling them in
  • the warmth of a frothing sink.
  • I unravel.
Julia Wehner

Julia Wehner has been writing poems since her first poetry unit in the third grade (the birthplace of such works as “If Only I Could Marry Food”). Her largest dreams for the future include composing piano music, educating her future children in the art of noticing, and cooking every meal with home-grown fresh herbs. She hopes to tell honest stories through everything she writes, innovating commonly-felt human emotions in an attempt to catch readers off guard: to remind them how richly good it is to feel, and to live.

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  • Ghost
  • my romances are packed
  • in an empty box
  • spaceless
  • slid clean across cold tile
  • making faces that
  • mimic
  • art
  • tricked 
  • into a large heart 
  • only bricks and buds to house
  • in this smoky dining room 
  • with a couch
  • and blushing knees
  • to brush and
  • press
  • hungry still
  • perhaps could ponder less
  • but what past is there
  • to see besides dinners i
  • couldn’t eat
  • no there is some old
  • old word that billows
  • both breathed and
  • unheard ripping clean
  • through centers of frozen
  • wrists with a touch
  • sublime
  • Have I…
  • (have i been
  • a lover in my sleep 
  • this whole time?)
  • Longing’s Clothes
  • Nothing that perfectly fits.
  • A painter’s torn and billowed cuffs; a thin dress
  • awarding no favors to figure, yet tinted an ideal green
  • to sit seven inches, in a trailing drop, below
  • the ripe heart of a bloomed eye.
  • Cottons and linens spaced away from the skin, causing
  • mere brushes in inhaling to collapse the notion that
  • feeling every large thing at one time is unreasonable, or
  • remotely under our control.
  • It’s all in the clothing longing wears.
  • And it’s what I wear on these evenings.
  • I quietly reboil the same cup of tea. I wait
  • for my brain to grasp some new way
  • to talk about it. I loathe everything I see
  • that he has never touched. Fumes of longing,
  • scatterings of ribbons — nothing that perfectly fits.
  • I sit — motionless — by the open window.
  • Faint gusts funnel through my loose sleeves, and
  • my breath pushes my arms to meet
  • the thread. Behind blue lids, I watch you
  • wash the dinner dishes, cradling them in
  • the warmth of a frothing sink.
  • I unravel.
Julia Wehner

Julia Wehner has been writing poems since her first poetry unit in the third grade (the birthplace of such works as “If Only I Could Marry Food”). Her largest dreams for the future include composing piano music, educating her future children in the art of noticing, and cooking every meal with home-grown fresh herbs. She hopes to tell honest stories through everything she writes, innovating commonly-felt human emotions in an attempt to catch readers off guard: to remind them how richly good it is to feel, and to live.

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