I was not born
with the mothering
bone, so it’s not
the young woman
my own age
on the 48 bus
hoisting her off-
spring aloft
who trains my attention,
or catches my heart
but the face of the ruined
man in a wheelchair
strapped down to the coach,
eyes gone wide watching
his jaw grown slack until
drool leaks out the corners
of the mouth he cannot wipe himself
calling out in a language which none
of us will respond to but
which we all apprehend
Shin Yu Pai, who grew up in Southern California, is a poet, photographer, oral historian, and editor. The author of seven collections of poetry, she has served as a poet-in-residence for the Seattle Art Museum and produced literary programming for the Crow Collection of Asian Art, the Women’s Museum of Dallas, and the Rubin Museum of Art. A former assistant curator for the Wittliff Collections, she is currently associate director of the Hendrix-Murphy Foundation for Language and Literature at Hendrix College. “we are all our own mothers” is from her recent collection, Adamantine, published by White Pine Press, and is reprinted by permission. Her website is shinyupai.com. The author’s photo is by Daniel Carrillo.
I was not born
with the mothering
bone, so it’s not
the young woman
my own age
on the 48 bus
hoisting her off-
spring aloft
who trains my attention,
or catches my heart
but the face of the ruined
man in a wheelchair
strapped down to the coach,
eyes gone wide watching
his jaw grown slack until
drool leaks out the corners
of the mouth he cannot wipe himself
calling out in a language which none
of us will respond to but
which we all apprehend
Shin Yu Pai, who grew up in Southern California, is a poet, photographer, oral historian, and editor. The author of seven collections of poetry, she has served as a poet-in-residence for the Seattle Art Museum and produced literary programming for the Crow Collection of Asian Art, the Women’s Museum of Dallas, and the Rubin Museum of Art. A former assistant curator for the Wittliff Collections, she is currently associate director of the Hendrix-Murphy Foundation for Language and Literature at Hendrix College. “we are all our own mothers” is from her recent collection, Adamantine, published by White Pine Press, and is reprinted by permission. Her website is shinyupai.com. The author’s photo is by Daniel Carrillo.